Oh, you know what else hurts? When an ex-girlfriend of your boyfriend tells him to break up with you because, well, let’s face it, "she can’t walk or do anything." Do you think that doesn’t cross my mind almost everyday? I think:
What can we do today? Where can we go? Am I good enough for him? Should I break up with him because he obviously deserves much better than me. I don't want to hold him back. Am I enough to keep him around?
That’s the kind of stuff I think about all the time.
The truth is, I believe that he is the one that I am meant to spend my life with. Can I live without him? Probably. Do I want to? Definitely not, and I can honestly say that I am scared to not have him in my life.
That is how I get with my husband. I get into these periods where I don't believe he deserves me. I love him and I told him up front about my condition and he wants to be with me, but I think he can do so much better. I don't know what I would do without him!
ReplyDeletei have ataxia, im 37. dont nknow which kind though. its hard, keep ur chin up.
ReplyDeleteChelsea, you are a treasure! Anyone would be lucky to have you in their life! What courage you have to deal with ataxia among so many that do not understand. Be happy!
ReplyDeleteChels-Who is that girl that said that??? She sucks! You ARE good enough for anyone, whether it is a friend or girlfriend, and you are too good for most of them anyway. That is girl is obviously jealous and still stuck on B. Don't listen to anything that people like her say. They don't count. You are beautiful on the outside as well as the inside, so please don't ever feel like that again. I am not just saying this because you are my cousin either. :)
ReplyDelete